Time

I don't have time to spare!  What the heck is going on? Oh that's right, baseball about every night of the week, MOPS takes up about every breathing moment of mine, and then of course because I'm trying to lose weight... working out has turned into a full time job in of itself (SERIOUSLY!?!). 

I love this time of the year but at the same time I despise it...it is so crazy here this time of year for everyone!  I am SO thankful we only have 2 kids this season involved in something. When those 2 are done the other two will get to do something...round and round we go!  However it keeps them busy and out of trouble...AND it keeps them tired which is key!


So with that said, life should be picking up more but as more picks up other things should be falling.  I hope to have more updates SOON! I have so much to blog about and not enough time! I have a stack of books calling my name and it's killing me people!


Ok I must go, my bed calls and the morning is fully of work outs and grocery shopping with some chores and weeding  thrown in for a good time!


Have a good day everyone!!!

 

First Communion

 

 

The Paulson's were on an important VIP list earlier this May. 

 

We were invited to this young lady's First Communion.  I have known her since she was sparkle in her parents eyes!  I get the privilege of being an honorary Auntie, which I love being!  Frank and I went to college with her parents and have know each other for a long time, and gone through many a thing. They are an Aunt and Uncle to my boys and they take us for what we are, loud and boisterous bundled mess. Thank GOD for friends like them! On top of that they like us AND they like my kids...for the most part! ;)

 

We had so much fun being a part of this big event in her life and I wanted pictures! So here are my pictures!

 

All the kids

And that little boy in the plaid, that's my little man..he wants to marry me someday. I'm his Auntie Ni-Ni.

 

These kids have known each other since they were born and both sets of parents have a suspicion that Zoe and Lee will be married.  They butt heads SO much right now that someday we think it might be different.  That could be interesting...to say the least!

 

 

 

 

Me and the little miss!

I can't believe how big she's getting! I remember when she was born, held her in my arms!

Who said any of these kids were allowed to get big and grow up?

       I love these pictures! I am so glad she remembered us and wanted us to be there and share on her big and important day! 

On a side note, all the boys were good during a 2 hour ceremony where 55 kids and their family participated with their child or family member in taking communion.  It was really kind of a neat thing to see.

Dance Letter

~Author Ian Paulson

(This letter is what Ian wrote when they were told about their dance class they were having and the recital I wrote about earlier)

Dear Ms. Cam
                Before I danced and when I heard about it I was feeling very nervous that I had to dance with a girl. I thought "yikes" and "man this is not going to look good for me." I was also very nervous the first day. I also thought oh-no oh-no.

     Now my thoughts after the first week is I have so much fun. On the first day I got rally excited to come back. My feelings changed to I like dancing with a girl now. I also got rid of my nerves.

What I hope to get our of this dance experience is to be a better dancer. I like the fox trot a lot. Your a great dance teacher.

Sincerely, Ian

 

Summit and Butts

 

 

 

 

 

A meeting of the minds

It's either a bare butt kind of day or bear butt...either way my nephews and I laughed hysterically at my joke.  Ok well it could have just been me.

Barn Quilt

 

 

 

 

I know it's been awhile but we are winding down our Spring Break here in our neck of the woods.  We have been lucky by the weather we were blessed with...it ALMOST makes up for having it be so late and not getting to hang with my bestie!  Almost!

 

 

While out and about on break I had been meaning to take this picture for a few people I know.  They saw a lot of barn quilts back in the Mid-west and then a girlfriend of mine made one for her parents barn.  During all this, like last fall and winter, I was on my way to a friends house and I stumbled across this!  I was caught off guard but excited!

 

So I slowly did a drive by and took my picture hoping no one would see me or think oddly of me.  It's a very cool looking thing to see I think!

Loopy De Loops

I have been pondering what to blog about the last few day and I'm still not really sure.  I know that I have many things going on right now that I can't talk about right now. Other things I can talk about but I'm not sure really where to begin or how to fully tell the back story to it all.

So this post might seem sporadic but it encompasses a few months time, so  here it goes:

1) If you are going to ask my opinion and then I tell you that you don't really want my opinion...don't get pissy at me if you don't like what I have to say in the end. Just trust me when I tell you, you don't really want my opinion.  Just a rule of thumb.  In the end my opinion doesn't really matter because I am not paying for said event...and then have a few people, some  who don't even matter to the event, go behind my back and talk about me?  Are we in highschool? Not only do they talk behind my back but they do it so my husband can hear? That boggles my mind. Be adult enough and say it so I can hear you or don't say it at all...eh whatever! Better yet...if you don't know me don't make assumptions...I might have a very good reason for my opinion...and you yours.

2 )Because I don't show my faith like you think I should  doesn't mean I don't have my faith or walk the walk. I just do it differently. I do it quietly and under the radar.  Also, you shouldn't walk into a place and say I want to be like so and so...First God calls us to be our very own person. So be yourself...if you don't like what's going on, help be the solution not the problem!  I have never wanted to throw someone out of my house so badly as I have this year...I'm still processing those feelings, they are powerful and overwhelming. Next, just because I'm not shouting CHRIST at the top of my lungs every 5 minutes doesn't mean I don't have my own walk with Christ and my own story of how I came to Christ.  Have you bothered to ask me my story? Nope didn't think so...too busy pointing fingers at what you don't like...too busy being so judgmental.  If you were to go by that line of thought, that because I don't do what you think I should do or say every time a word comes out of my mouth about faith and Christ, then you would have to say that my marriage is a loveless one.  Why you ask...well because we don't publicly show our love for each other.  We rarely hold hands in public, we don't kiss in public (I can't even think of a time except our wedding when we did)...we are NOT big PDA people.  So based off the assumption that I'm not a holy roller or bible thumper I don't have a walk with Christ therefore I, by those same rules, have a loveless marriage.  Go figure! Great powers of deduction that you have.  My marriage has it's ups and downs and all arounds and loopy de loops like everyone else, good Lord it makes me sick to my stomach sometimes!!! Welcome to Life!

3) I am tired of being made to feel 3inches tall because my husband takes my kids by HIMSELF to functions. He IS their dad after all...logic would assume you know?  I'm tired of tiptoeing around the fact that I'm married vs. the single mom out there. Tired of the egg shells.  It's not my fault if you are single for whatever the reason is.  It's not my fault that my children's father takes them somewhere so I can stay home by myself for 2 hours.  For as many moms that are out there helping their daughters with new babies and what not's...(which I didn't and don't have) there are husbands out there doing what they signed up to do.  I do the same for him...I take the kids while he stays home.  BIG FUCKING DEAL! You knew what you were getting into just like I knew or had a pretty good idea of what I was walking into family wise and person wise. Same for my husband ...he didn't walk into this blind...he knew the back assward mess he was getting himself into. There are no surprises here!  Deal with it.  I'm dealing with my own crap just like you are and again...NOT my fault so quit trying to make me feel bad and quit trying to make it my fault! DONE!

4) I am a mother to 4 boys.  Please quit throwing in my face about how many kids you have and how tired you are and all that other bullshit to explain away why you don't get your shit done.  I have 4 kids, I get it AND...I get my stuff done.  Does my house look like a black hole half the time...YES! Am I tired? YES! But I manage to get my stuff done...I signed up for something I said I would do it I'll do it!  I'm tired of hearing why your late...saying you gotta get 4 kids somewhere...I get 4 kids somewhere and get somewhere on time.  Plan accordingly...make what you committed too a priority too.  You said you were gonna do something...DO IT!  Tired of hearing about how many kids so and so has so cut them some slack...honestly! Don't get me wrong...I know how ugly what I have written sounds...but I've been hearing this crap for a year now...if it was once in awhile I'd be more understanding. Now I'm just pissed when I hear it and wonder when I can use these excuses and just who the hell would fall for it that I know of.  I still haven't come up with anyone. 

5) If you think I'm talking about you...I'm probably not.

6) Change is really hard

7) Cancer sucks and relationships are hard...combine the 2 and well I'm outta words for that one.  Just know that because one was struggling to begin with doesn't mean the other negates the whole thing or wipes the slate clean again.  I can't even figure out my thoughts and feelings on that one...been a month at least and I'm still processing. Just know I'm stumbling around in the dark on this one!

8) I have planned to walk out on a limb and put myself out there on something I know to be big for me and try really hard to not get my expectations up.  Hard I know.  If it doesn't happen it will be ok, eventually and I'll try again.

9) What in the WORLD do I want to be when I grow up! Why is this so hard!?!  Sheesh!

10) I am done and I feel a bit better by doing this. However I wonder if I'm prepared for the backlash...just remember...my page not yours...

Field of Color

 

 

 

Love this! All the colors of the rainbow and then some!

 

                                             
                                             God loves his color palette that's for sure!